Thursday, September 9, 2010

I blinked...






Matthew 5:14-16 "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. "

I've heard it said a million times... "Don't blink, because before you know it, they will be all grown up. Cherish these moments, because one day they will be gone...."

Really? Really!

I have only reached the threshold of these days... Kayden has started kindergarden and now more than ever am missing "those days."

I remember when Kayden was attending pre-school in Alabama... He would cry, his body would go limp, and I would be the red faced mom verging on tears as I carried him to class each day... Like it was yesterday, I vividly remember calling my hubby, my friends, my pastor, all trying to seek guidance on how to handle the situation... I asked anyone who would listen all the questions that came into mind..... Is he too young? What am I doing sooo wrong? Is this the right program? What should I do? To them all, I said..." I can't wait for this season to pass....." For now, it has... He gladly wakes each morning, he willingly walks into his classroom, he smiles as he tells me of his day... He loves it... I am sad.....
As I droped him off for his first day, he formed a line and followed his friends into the classsroom... He looked back and smiled... I hurried to him, reminded him of his happy and obedient heart, and asked him who he wants his friends to see... He assuredly looked up to me, smiled and said " Ill show everybody Jesus!"
The funny phrases, the silly faces, the mouth open stare... I miss him... Because he is simply awesome!! I know I am doing my best... I know he will shine Gods love... I know for now he is doing school work, but one day he will be doing HIS work...
For he is not mine, but God's...

I lay him at your feet, Lord.... Protect him, guard his heart, stand by him...

For it is not my will Lord, but Yours... Make him the salt and light of the world...